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Yes guys i FORGOT to go league. Honestly disgusted with myself... How on earth could i have missed such an important thing! Only realised at night, when i ask joshua what his missed call was about, then saw my comp spammed with msn messages asking why i didnt come. Sorry guys. I let you all down. But i had tuition at 12nn, even though i replied to darrells sms saying i would go. Stupid man....

Sorry for not blogging for the past few days.. Was busy with the Lifeskills workshop for Sec 4s, from 8 a.m to 6p.m. Was damn fun la, though some parts were lame. I was in group B, the so called "potential 6-pointer" along with fergus, you chen, robby etc. and had 3 wonderful coaches. Coach Sabrina, Coach Shaun and lastly of course and importantly Coach Ruby. (haha)

Learnt ALOT of things. How to study smart, what type of personality i have and character development stuff. I am a I/S personality, moastly right-brained and kinestatic learner for those who understand that. The course was fun, especially with the funny videos, lame jokes and the games. There was one game, on the second day, it was called "Huddle". Basically we got into groups of about 10 and lock arms. Then the coaches would come around and try to pull people out. Being the smallest >.<, obviously i was targeted. Out of 2 times the coaches tried to pull someone out of our group, i was targeted twice. But thanks to my group and especially to the 2 nect to me, fergus and joel, they closed me into the centre and blocked off the coaches. Wei Kiat on the opposite side also held on to me. :D

Just got scolded by Lennard. Supposed to help him with the History Ellective project. Forgot about it too. Sorry Lennard!!!

Thats about it...

♥ 6:47 AM.

Life is so full of irony...

Just like the song that Mrs Lim played for us (during morning assembly). Its really awkward when

FOR EXAMPLE, People ask you to go for a meal together and you agreed after much consideration when actually you could have taken a lift home. You decide that its worth the time to eat with your good friends and that it'll be an enjoyable time. Then, pretty suddenly, the very same people that asked you for the meal, disappear without a word and you find your eating only with one other guy, who at least has a conscience to stay behind.

ANOTHER EXAMPLE, When you're really pissed with someone because of a CERTAIN issue and you really have no mood to talk or communicate with them so you just walk pass to stop yourself from being rude and you hear him and you hear him curse under his breath at you for ignoring him. Isnt that so ironic? How he changes the scenario and makes YOU become at fault? Isnt it so ironic how he pardons himself and then BLAMES you again?

Life's a funny place...

♥ 5:06 AM.

Another normal school day today. Got back quite a few results... Faileed geog by 1 and a half marks -.-, expected it though. Got back chemistry. 25/45. Expected to do better. Went through chinese paper 1 too.

After the dreaded math extra lesson until 3.45 which surprisingly i understood what the teaher was talking about, i headed to the ISH (indoor sports hall) to watch the C Division training. Eager to see the new sec 1s have their first hand at the game, i guess it was worth the time. However i was surprised to see Darrell and Ryan there already, as i thought only I was stupid enough to go. Later on Jarryl came too. I spent slightly less than an hour there but had quite a bit of fun. Joking and suaning and trying to airhook half-balls with the school sticks. Lol

Recently, i've been watching Gundam Seed and Gundam Seed Destiny, the Japanese anime which is pretty popular. Yes i know its old but seriously i learnt quite a bit from it. The dilema of war. For example, the leader of ORB having to decide whether to side with the powerful Earth Alliance, armed with nuclear weapons but instigated the war or with ZAFT the defending nation, blamed for attempting to destroy the earth (by intentionally changing the orbit of a giant outspace object to hit Earth)

However more related to our non-fiction lives is something else also found in the anime. It is known as the SEED factor. Standing for Superior Evolutionary Element Destined-factor. Yes i know the name sounds wierd but it simply refers to a state of mind that surpasses the human limit. Synonymous to "Mind over Matter". Below is a extract from www.wikipedia.org (All rights reserved =.=)

"SEED mode represents the ability for an individual with the SEED factor to enter into a state of enhanced awareness and peak physical ability. While in this state, the person (usually a mobile suit pilot, but not necessarily) demonstrates heightened reflexes and extremely quick information processing. This ability is usually triggered by extreme situations or from recalling significant traumas, often arising out of a need to protect someone else in a critical situation."

"There are two observed ways that SEED mode can be activated. When a character suddenly resolves to protect his allies or to strike down his enemies during battle, however, it also happens when a character has entered battle with a particular resolve, he may trigger SEED mode at will. A character's state of mind when he enters SEED mode appears amplified. Entering it through the first way, in response to the stress of battle, is most commonly (but not always) caused by anger or rage. The heightened awareness and ability allows the person to fight more efficiently, often resulting in a much higher kill count. Those who enter it the second way (or the first way with a calm state of mind) display an increased amount of mental control."

"SEED mode can only be entered by characters who can commit themselves fully to a battle for some strong reason"

Although it may be fictitious, stuff that only appears in an anime or cartoon, i find that it may actually be true. Of course i dont mean it is used to fight wars in real life but similarly is can be applied to, for example, sportsmen. Triggered by one's determination to win or outdo his opponents, an athlete MAY be able to enter that state of mind as described above. It may sound like utter nonsense to you but i believe is something in us that is somewhat like that. Leave me a tag on what you think...

♥ 3:20 AM.

The chinese new year. My favourite holiday :D Mainyl for the following few reasons.

1. We get days off school. How cool is that?
2. We get "Ang Paos" or Red Packets with money. Time and Money the keys to happy teenage life :D
3. We get to gamble. When was the last time you got to win money from your relatives in a card game?? Pretty cool.

But I aint gonna talk about my CNY holiday. Basically the same thing. Wake up, go to relatives house, smile-shakehands, take ang paos then start playing blackjack! Muhahahaha.

Today was the usual back-to-school blues. After a 4 day rest, the feeling of waking up at 6 in the morning to go for something you wont find interesting is pure SIAN. However, after school I was actually looking forward to something. No, not going home to DotA. It was the wednesday math tuition with Gene, Ryan and Stalker. Yea but it sucked. Seriously.

Eugene tried to sing a Chinese song i couldnt identify either because i dont many songs or i couldnt make out any words he was singing. You decide. Stalker was being a retard distracting me when i was asking the teacher questions and started random, useless conversations during the lesson. Ryan was ok though. But i find our group of 4 freaking noisy. Disturbing and distracting everyone else. She may have smiled but it doesnt mean she wasnt irritated.

Thats about it. Sorry for the long gap between posts. >.<

♥ 7:08 AM.

Is it the end of playing floorball for Catholic High? Was the match yesterday the last time i'll be wearing the new catholic high pioneer jersey? The answer is Yes.
BUT
Is it the end of me playing floorball? Was that the last time i will play with my teammates? Is it the last time i will play as a proud member of CHS FB? The answer is NO.

2 years ago, i made a promise to myself. That i would NEVER give up on floorball. No matter what. Nows the time i make sure i keep to it.

It has been a tiring but enjoyable experience to play with you guys. To answer the question Mr Han posted to all of us, "What will you all remember most?" My answer is definite. Not the feeling of scoring a goal, not the feeling of playing a good game, not even the feeling of winning a game. Its all the happy memories. I wish i could preserve them in a more lasting way, store them in some place safer than my brain. I would always remember our trainings, our pizza hut lunches, our LAN sessions, our movies we watched together and of course all the games we played as a team. I would remember how we would run until we have absolutely no energy and then get a line change, i will remember how we would cheer each other on, no matter the scoreline or whether someone has made an awful mistake. I would remember the times of the floorball camp, how we planned to reserve the sports hall toliet for bathing, how we joked before we slept, how we threw sweets into the sea of sleeping bags. These are the little insignificant things that i will keep close to my heart.

Its a sad thing, that we cannot play for Catholic High School together anymore. I was close to tears after the Assumption match. I had scored my first nationals goal, we had won 9 - 1 but after all that. After all we put in, we fell short. I was sad because i felt we should have gotten better results with our skills, effort, hardwork but it was all not to be. It was the final match. It may be the last time i play together with some people, Samuel himself told me he as qutting floorball in JC. I'm not sure Nicholas would participate in the League. Etc.... It was all gone so fast, i didnt even have enough time to cherish the feeling. The feeling of being a team.

Lastly, no matter where i end up, i sincerely hope to play once again with you guys. Good luck for the B division next year!

♥ 3:33 AM.

Now i dunno how to start. Thanks to joshua...

Today was tiring. During training i ran my heart out, put all my effort in, and to great results. I reckon i did well today again, after a dismal performance at the Nationals yesterday.

Our qualification chances of our nationals, is in jeopardy due to a couple of reasons. and our chances of qualiying depend on 2 things, score 16 goals against Assumption English and that Teck Whye must beat East View. I'm sure some of us feel that our chances are really low. But lets annaylze this. The 2 factors, one can be controled, one cant. My point? We give it everything we have against Assumption.

For me, this year has been a rollar coaster ride. High and low alternating can really throw you off-track. Scored an equaliser at League, missed a penalty, played well against argonauts, screwed up at nationals. I'm not sure if i can hang on, but i will, for myself but more importantly for my team. I cant imagine myself playing with everyone i don't know. Its just scary how in less than a year, i'll be in a JC or Poly, possbily playing floorball with people i've never seen before.

Lastly, on another note i'd like to say to some people of the team. We shouldnt take for granted the people we are playing with now. Criticism is for the coach. We play our best regardless of how our teammate performs.

Gd night.

♥ 5:35 AM.

hi dudes

they always say that seniors should set examples for their juniors. they say seniors should be a role model for their juniors. they say juniors should learn from their seniors. sad to say, this is totally non-existant in CHS floorball.

Today we had our match against Swiss Cottage. Everyone was hyped before the match, including me. The prospect of qualifying fo the second round, thought of scoring many goals and having an enjoyable game was in all our minds. Then we left off and as we were early as usual, we had time to play around in the court downstairs. I remember Ryan saying "We can easily beat them, they totally suck." and Ms Adeline Krishnan said "With your standard you should thrash them." I agreed with the latter and told Ryan off for being complacent. But secretly in my heart, i was eager to prove my worth and repeat my performance as against argonauts just 2 days ago.

The pre-match warm up began and after a few drills mr han called us in for the usual team talk. He gave us our lines, the usual line 2, line 1 with derek billy ryan and crenshawn. and i was in line 3, along with min hao dion dickson and wee kiat. I thought: Hey, this aint so bad. I remembered i could get along somewhat with min hao's playing style and was comfortable with dickson as my partner forward. The whistle went off, samuel put us ahead within 14 seconds and then someone else scored for a 2 - 0 lead. Then it was our line's first and last time to play on court. To be honest, i felt that we were okay. A long ranged ball flew toward goal took a wicked deflection off min hao to wrong foot Lander. No one to be blamed. Then shortly after the resultant face-off, they were on the attack once again. At the corner, i noticed a free forward right in front of our goal and no one was going to mark him. Panicking i rushed forward to try and cut him out. Just as i reached him, the exact thing i was dreading happened. A simple double pass somehow got to him and i could only reach my stick out to block half the shot which still ended up in the goal.... After our disastrous entry, we no longer played. It was just a rotation between line 1 and line 2.

After thinking thorugh today's match, i cannot help but feel that we, the seniors, have really let our juniors down. I think its safe to say that without any sec 4 in the team of B division, relying alone on our sec 3s, they would have made it this far and maybe have even better results. What have we contributed?

I would like to apologise to all the secondary 3s of floorball, on behalf of any other sec 4 that feels sorry too, for we have let you down. You guys trained very hard and put in alot of effort, in and out of the court, just for this competition. I really hope that none of us would prove to be a hindrance to your performance and that we will still be a team after all. I promise i would put in my 100%, hoping it would be enough.

♥ 6:25 AM.

Hi dudes

Before i start my post i have a little note to my readers.
1. Please ignore my blogskin. I'm not a tauros, i'm not born in May and for goodness sake i am not 1.54m. (last time i check it was a little higher than that.)
2. Those who have blogs please link me :D I'll link you back as soon as I can. (after my prelims)
thats all.

Today sucked. Started off with a boring science tuition from 11a.m to 1 p.m at Hougang. Damn sian -.- Then as I was walking to the nearby bus stop to wait for my mum, i was my old classmate ( 1-5 , 2-5) with his girlfriend. lol. Wont mention names to protect identity haha. Didnt do much at home. studied geography notes then remembered that tomorrow was our match against Swiss Cottage Secondary! Man i was excited, for about 2.3 seconds... The shocking revelation of the new jersey struck me. The sleeves were up to my elbows and i forgot to get it altered all week. Omg. All was too late now. Guys, if you see me in my jersey tomorrow please refrain from laughing... It really sucks. However, i have thought of a plan. :D

Step 1: Wear the over-sized jersey.
Step 2: Play at my 110% at the match
Step 3: Pray that everyone was so bowled over by my performance that no one noticed my jersey was too big :X

Nothing much to blog about today. Thanks for visiting anyway :D

♥ 2:27 AM.

Hi dudes

My day started at 9.20, with much effort, i lifted my eye lids and reached for my handphone in its usual place (slotted in a pink mushroom soft toy/handphone holder) next to my bed and looked in horror as i saw the time. 9.20a.m !!! OMG im gonna be late! Then i thought to myself, rather panicky, I think I'll sleep for another 5 mins.... :D Finally, my determination to get to training took over and i sat up rather lazily. After a hurried breakfast of bread and bacon, and a quick clean up, i hopped-on my mums car and raced off to Cat High. By then it was probably 9.45 a.m and my message to Han Wei telling him i might be late would prove useful. Racing up the indoor sports hall flight of steps at full speed, thinking to myself: we really need an elevator, i pushed open the door to find... that i was still early (earlier than han wei :P) and only a small group of floorballers were there taking shots at the goal. What a waste of energy.

After an unusually short period of drills, we were on to training match! Yippe! As mr han called the 2 favourite words of floorballers "Balls in!" I skipped around in high spirits picking up balls that were within my "Energy Radius" to keep. Oh btw my "Energy radius" is about 40 cm on tired days and 60 cm on energetic days. (Note: the radius has nothin to do with my height so if you're planning to suan me in the chat box forget about it. Yes i'm talking to you Eugene.) As i proceeded to the side board where i knew we would be given our lines, still in high spirits, i whacked in the groin/nuts/balls by Crenshawn, who was shooting at the goal.... Holy crap it hurt. After a long recovery time (approx 4 mins) i got into my line for the game, no longer in high spirits. lol. We played against each other + the NJC team. Quite fun.

Then came the Argonauts, conveniently well the team was half worn-out. Probably Mr Han's elaborate plan to win... So the game was on.

Line 1: Me, Dickson, Min Hao, Dion
Line 2: Joshua, Jarryl, Darrell, Samuel
Line 3: Ryan, Crenshawn, Billy, Derek
Goalkeeper: Lander
Coach: Eugene Lee Zheng Wei
Referee: Mokha (he did a good job if you ask me)

Line 2 started off and joshua dribbled brilliantly to get past many people, though they didnt score, i still think Line 2 is fast, agressive and fluent. Their pass connect well, they communicate well and they're all super fast. In a real game, it would just be a matter of time before they score, as proven in the nationals and league.

Then was my line. After i highstick call or slashing call (cant rmb) from Mokha, we had a free hit at the halfway line. I love free hits. Min Hao came up to touch the ball as i shot pass Han Wei (playing for argonauts) and into the goal. It was really lucky to be honest. Han wei probably lost sight of it for a moment and it slipped, should he have been paying attention, it would definately be an easy save. But nonetheless i was jubiliant. I could tell i was playing well. Keeping in mind the areas i had to improve on, i held the ball and tried to take on the (BIG) defenders.

After a few line changes, i was back on. Again my line did well to keep possession during a power play, and min hao and dion held the backlines steadily. It was during power play that min hao pass a inch-perfect pass to put me on. I had only the keeper to beat and i was really glad i didnt mess that chance up. The last moments before the shot was a blurry image of han wei sliding up to block the near post, a small glance at the far post and nothing else. I didnt even see my shot go in. In my opinion, its the passer/assister that deserves credit, just like how Fabregas plays. Hold the ball well, pass perfectly and when it come to taking shots, he does it well too.

After the CHS vs. Argonauts match, which ended 2 - 4, i stayed on the play for NJC as they took on Argonauts too. I failed to make any difference though and even before the match was over i was tired out and couldnt play the last period. Gosh, i have to work on my fitness. As Eugene, Min hao, Darrell and the rest left to have lunch first, I and ryan waited for Han Wei. Together we had luch at Bishan North and went separate ways home after that.

I'm really glad i played well today and i do hope that i will continue like this for Nationals and League so as to let my teammates down. Btw, do you guys like long posts with lots of details or short ones with just the key points? Leave me a note on the chatbox. Bye!

♥ 11:46 PM.

Hi dudes..

dunno if anyone would read this but i decided to start blogging again, its may be a very wrong time to start though as I'm (with other cat high sec 4s) currently in the middle of prelim 1... Last time i blogged was soo long ago.. Due to some interuption which i will not be bothered to put here. Thank goodness we're in different classes now. Wouldnt be able to stand anymore bullshit from that dude. Okay enough talking to myself... oh and btw ignore the nonsensical rubbish on the blog skin, i'll get Eugene to clear it up once both of us have the time. (Note to eugene: After our exams can?)

Today was the 2nd day of prelim 1... was partially owned by english paper 1, happy i survived, then got totally owned by english paper 2 (and currrently dead). Paper 1 was cloze passgeS (note the plural) and a situational writing.. the last cloze passage was a killer... my god after you hand up the paper and start discussing the questions you have this "OH CRAP" feeling when they tell you their correct answer... paper 2 was the usual comprehension and summary... SUPER difficult... and they tell us to expect more from prelim 2.... Sec 4 sucks.... Was reading the passage then came across this work "Pragmatism", thinkin to myself "What on earth does that mean?" Then as if the compre read my mind, there came the questions "Explain in your own words......................" Basically, i required me to define pragmatism in my own words. Needless to say, i got pwned...

Tomorrow is the friendly against NJC or Argonauts (Mr Han's division 2 floorball team). Not sure what the sms meant. I wish i was better at floorball... I remember that time when i was trying to convince Darrell to go for the league match he asked whether I was going and i replied pretty confidently "I am going whether you are going or not." Then he jokingly replied "Anyway you go also no difference.. " with a mischievious smile. I knew that he was joking but after some reflection, i found that what he was said might be true. I've never scored in the Nationals (both last year and this year) and after scoring a goal in the League, hadnt i missed a penalty to cancel it out? Technically i dont even contribute to the team... I cant dribble, i have no speed, i lose the ball too easily... I guess if i carry on like that I would gladly give up my place to Eugene in the nationals. He would definately make a bigger impact on the game...

Sorry for the emo post especially on the first post...

♥ 3:21 AM.